Sometimes I can't believe myself

Sometimes, I'm soo lazy I put my spoon in my bowl and can't even bring it to my mouth so that I eat. And sometimes, I amaze myself at how disciplined I can be and how far I can push myself, when I have to.

Last week and this week have been evidence. I can't quite remember the last time I forced myself to do something I didn't want to, just because I had to. But I really did. I have exams and I've never studied like this in my life before. I outdid my self :). My philosophy about studying was if you are tired, go to bed. But last week, I discovered a new philosophy: if you have to, make up your mind to do it, set goals, set a realistic time limit, and achieve those goals, no matter what it takes, before the time is up. I've heard this a lot of times from motivational speakers and the likes but I haven't really practised it. Or if I have, I don't remember. I've discovered how to push my self and push my endurance limits, higher and higher. I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength..:)!


And I'm going to apply this new found strength to every aspect of my life, even exercising (the dreaded word)...lol. How many of you have made up your minds to diet, exercise, set weight loss goals, blah blah blah, and have stopped along the way? Well, I want to say, if even I, as lazy as I can be, can push myself, you can too. Everyone else can!

And this leads me to this quote from Marianne Williamson I just remembered:

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.' We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we're liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

And this is how Ama sees it!